VISION 2022- A letter from Me to You

 Hey You! 

Yes You.. Stop being harsh on yourself.I know you get overwhelmed watching so many people live the life of their dreams, going on dream vacations, productivity geeks managing their routines so well while you still struggle waking up early and sticking to a routine. I know after endless procastination and false promises to sleep on time and start exercising and eating healthy, you still fall a prey to the choclate loaded brownies or the mouth tickling yummy panipuri plate. I know that you promise, not scrolling insta reels back to back or watching Netflix but then your fav blogger shares a reel on your favourite song looking absolutely gorgeous or your favourite series comes up with another season, something that you have waited this long to watch. I know with the internet flooding with videos of how 'minimalism is the new black' you keep promising of not buying more clothes and decluttering your wardrobe but then your fav influencer picks up an outfit and you simply cant resist and end up buying that outfit landing yourself in that vicious circle again. I know you promise yourself to love yourself first, prioritise your mental well being but then society expects a lot out of you amd you end up frustrated and miserable. I know you. I am You. 

Dont be harsh on yourself. The very fact that you are trying is a huge thing in itself. Dont compare your baby steps with someone else's giant leap. They had started somewhere You and I am right now. Life is simple and do you think you should complicate it by overburdening yourself with all at once. You deserve love patience kindness that you so easily pour on others. Take it slow. Start with waking 15 mins early or may be not snoozing your alarm when it beeps the very first time. Allow yourself to cheat on your favourite food when following your strict diet. Sometimes instead of hitting gym go out on a stroll with your parents, pet or call up your bestie..Trust me it would add to mental health as well. Just dont rush after trends, what is today might now be tomorrow. Be you, be your own trendsetter. 

With the advent of a new year. I know you just like me would simply add up goals just like we have done all these years. A vicious circle of never ending promises and false hopes, isn't it? but this year lets promise ourself not to be harsh on ourself, not to compare our life with someone else lala land, pour ourself with endless love and patience and to take it slow. Just remember a slow pace is far better than quitting.

I have promised myself the same. How about you..

THE STRUGGLE IS REAL.. MY STORY EVERY NIGHT

Its 12 AM, My poor brain has begun pleading me to sleep and my eyes have been given the final warning to shut down before dark circles pop up like a drug addict on the creases of my already puffy swollen eyes but the Imp (small mischievous devil) in my heart is frantically dancing to the beats of old memories. The stage remains same and the characters too, however the dialogues keep on changing and the script improvisation continues for the audience and the judge of the show- Mr brain. 

Mr brain, an old experienced righteous soul,who knows exactly whether you are right or wrong in every odd situation, whether what you said,did or thought is kind or not. Mr Brain, although very difficult to impress even though with extraordinary dialogue delivery and great enacting abilities, Mr heart doesn't give up easily. It is like that roudy teenager who keeps on doing things even though asked not to.

The play continues."Kaun Banega Crorepati" oops i meant "Kaun Banega Chandrapati". Afterall the mission of Brain is to make everyone 'one Raja Harishchandra' isn't it? how old school isn't it😁

 uff!! I am tired playing this game now and my anxiety has overpowered the nervousness before even the play started. I now start running away from my precarious thoughts.

I hastily jump out for my phone pull my phone from the charging pin and rush to my bed. The rowdy heart is now seeking suggestion to ease the turmoil and guess what Mr brain has a solution already- Open Youtube. I clicked on the red, already depressed icon with a hollow in its heart and in no time found myself typing "music to help sleep faster" and am soon flooded with tons of them- binaural beats, meditation music to sleep, singing bowl sleep inducing music and what not. 

After playing a Fastest finger first, I locked my option and with headphones on and eyes shut I found myself getting transported to another world..

" I am glad I played the music. I am feeling great now. Mr brain is always right but wait..

If The brain is always right then why does the heart poke its nose in every business brain puts his heart onto..I will from now on only listen to what my brain says I wont get carried away by my heart. heart-brain-brain-heart.. I dont know where this voice is coming from now- Brain or Heart" 

Oh God! Will this chatter ever stop. God please help me sleep.. 

Does this happen with you all too?